Twilight 12-Step Program - DO NOT WANT!

Why ANYONE would think this is a good idea, I'll never know.  But in the interest of fairness (and snarfingly good humor):

The following 12 step program may contain spoilers. If you have not read all four books, read at your own risk!

Step 1.   Step away from the Twilight books! This includes hard and paperback books, computer downloads, I pods, audio books, ETC. 

Step 2.   Hide all of your acquired memorabilia, such as clothes, knickknacks, screensavers, ETC. 

Step 3.   Take a shower, clean your house (no, really clean it), and if you have a significant other, children, pets etc., please locate them and let them know you are trying to get back into the world of the living, and you are on a program to help you. 

Step 4.   Do not name any children or pets Edward, Bella, Renesmee, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, Carlisle, Esme, etc. (You get my drift). 

Step 5.  Do not travel to Washington, Italy, Dartmouth College, or anywhere else that might be referenced in the book. 

Step 6.   Most people will never own any of the cars in this series (except maybe the Volvo), so be happy with the minivan, it’s not that bad! 

Step 7.   Do not purchase a fur coat and run through the woods looking for Jacob or his pack. 

Step 8.  Clothes are really not meant to be worn one time only.  A normal person does not have as many as Alice unless being a Twilaholic is not their only problem, so don’t try to live up to Alice’s expectations. 

Step 9.  You cannot “Dazzle” people to get your way.  Do not try this, it will be very embarrassing.  Live with it, we’re only human, Edward is not. 

Step 10.  Do not hang out in meadows, parks, at the mall, or Indian Reservations hoping that someone will “IMPRINT” on you.  Bad plan. 

Step 11.  Remember that you actually have to eat more than every week or so (and this doesn’t mean that you should become a hunter in the Cullen sense, you might get hurt). You also have to sleep.  No human is that drop dead gorgeous all the time, (remember you are a human and Edward is not) and dark circles under your eyes really suck. 

Step 12.   Okay, we all know none of this actually sank in the first time.  Now you must go back to Step 1 and try again.  Remember to keep saying, “I am a human and I’m in the world of the living!”

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The Twelve Days of Twilight Christmas

On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me
A Vampire in a Forks Tree.


On the second day of Christmas my true love gave to me 
Two Motorcyle Gloves and a Vampire in a Forks Tree.














On the third day of Christmas my true love gave to me Three Wolf dens Two Motorcycle Gloves and A Vampire in a Fork's Tree.





On the fourth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.

























On the fifth day of Christmas my true love gave to me
FIIIIIIVE VOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiings!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.




On the sixth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIVE VOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiings!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.

















On the seventh day of Christmas my true love gave to me Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiings!!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.





On the eighth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Eight Days of Reading, Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiings!!!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree. 


























On the ninth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Nine Laurents Dancing, Eight Days of Reading, Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiings!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.




On the tenth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Ten Quileutes Sleeping, Nine Laurents Dancing, Eight Days of Reading, Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiings!!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.
















On the eleventh day of Christmas my true love gave to me Eleven Rosalies Griping, Ten Quileutes Sleeping, Nine Laurents Dancing, Eight Days of Reading, Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiings!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Tree.





On the twelth day of Christmas my true love gave to me Twelve Volvos Humming, Eleven Rosalies Griping, Ten Quileutes Sleeping, Nine Laurents Dancing, Eight Days of Reading, Seven Bella Swans Swimming, Six New Borns Slaying, FIIIIIIIVE VOOOOOOlturi Kiiiiiiiings!!!! Four New Moon Shirts, Three Wolf Dens, Two Motorcycle Gloves, and a Vampire in a Fork's Treeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

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Literacy

 

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Espresso

This is what I a) look like and b) feel like right now.

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Tonight's the Night!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW MOON DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plan of attack:

- Get absolutely no work done at work because I am bouncing off the walls like a 4 year-old
- Stay late and still get nothing done so that I can have the morning off tomorrow
- Go home and shower and touch said self in shower to prepare for the second coming of Edward.  pun SO intended.
- Get cuted out in as much Twi-gear as possible so I look like I'm 12
- Go to the Melting Pot with Erika for their New Moon special event and try not to squee like an asshole in the restaurant
- Grab Starbucks so we can make sure we are energized for the midnight show
- Wander over to the theater and try to act like totally cool women instead of way uncool fangirls
- Get in line ahead of as many people as possible so we can get great seats and don't have to break our necks looking up at an oversized screen that would make us dizzy
- Take turns peeing so that we don't have to get up during the movie AND we don't have to lose our spot in line
- Get our seats and start shaking like freaks
- Break out the mini bottles of liquor and tissues and settle in for the long haul

And there you have it.

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Aww, a sweet kiss on the lips

I fail to see the fail of this Fail.

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Breaking up with Rob

*sigh*

I didn't want to have to do this, and I'm not sure how permanent it's going to be, but...

I'm breaking up with Rob.

Ok, ok, now don't freak out.  I am the first one to say do what makes you happy and Twilight/Rob/bloggin/facebook buddy love makes me happy.  But I can't support myself (at least not yet) with Twilight love.

My uncle came into town yesterday for the night and stayed at my house.  He is a very successful VP at Cablevision and he did it by climbing the ladder and making a name for himself.  At my age, he was making 100K and had major responsibilities.  Granted, the money isn't what I'm after and I also don't live in NY (anymore) as he does.

I do, however, want to be successful at whatever it is that I do. 

I have been floundering in work and in life for a few years now.  Job interviews are like fairy tale endings.  They are not truly the end, but just the beginning.  Cinderella still has to put up with Charming's socks on the floor and skid marks in his underwear.  Ariel has to come to grips with the fact that she'll never be able to truly go home again to see her family and you just KNOW she's going to blame Eric for that and come to resent him over time.  I don't know what makes Bella think her situation is going to be any different.  She's giving up her friends and family and her entire life.  Edward is giving up nothing. 

My point is - the interview and the offer are just the beginning.  Once you are in the job, you have to continually prove that you are a professional that can be trusted to come through in situations that are crucial to the company.  Unfortunately, in my current company, I have not been given a chance to shine due to a management that is happy to keep low-level employees in their place. 

That is no excuse.  I need to step up my game if I ever want to have a successful life.  I am all about minimalism and zen habits but if I am not succeeding and being productive in some way, I feel stagnant.  It's part of who I am.  It's in my DNA.  I love to make things happen, bring them to fruition and then unleash them on the world to see their reactions. 

Now, back to the break-up.

Mr. Pattinson, you have been a source of comfort for me.  I love looking at your beautiful face (and body) but there is so much more to you than that.  And Kristen has to get in on this too.  These two young actors have inspired me to live an honest life.  To not live for others and what they want from you, but to think of things that make ME happy and go out and get mine.  You are connected to life but in the most efficient ways possible.  No twitter, no facebook, no google alerts on your actor obsession.  *clears throat*  I will be deleting my @1breezybri twitter account.  I will still have a professional one for business contacts, but as a hobby for my personal life, it takes too much energy and is too addicting to be productive. 

My personal notes to Rob and Twilight:

Rob, your songs are soulful and intense and every note out of your mouth is one to be cherished.  I hope you put an album out because your voice has come to be a calm in the storm.

Twilight, you are a whirlwind in my life.  I am still convinced that the publishers and Stephenie somehow got crack infused in the pages of the books and that's why I've become obsessed like I have. 

Then, after reading the books 4 times each, I graduated to fanfiction and never looked back.  Not only have I read my fair share, but I've also written a few and enjoy hearing feedback from my characters and plotlines.  I intend to keep reading the updates that I receive but I am not going to start any new ones any time soon.  Who knows what the future may bring, but the present belongs to me now.

Again, that provides me happiness and is a great hobby.  For something that has been a hobby, however, I sure have spent an awful lot of time and energy on it.

I will never be one of those authors who removes my stories from the net, nor will I NOT finish Programming.  I may sacrifice the second chapter of the two-shot and I may leave Touched as a one-shot, but Programming will be completed and will always be online (unless for some reason FFn or Twilighted decides they hate me).  I will also still post the SSCSA whenever they are held and I will do so with gusto.  You ladies make me laugh like nobody's business.  I feel like I have truly found a family in all of your friendships.

So, Twilight.  Rob.  Kristen.  Half-nakie pictures of Kellan.  It's not you, it's me.  There are things I want to accomplish in my life and you can be damn sure I won't get the opportunity if my ass is plastered to my couch while I watch yet another leaked video.  I'm still convinced that the whole movie will be out in small increments before it's out in theaters.  I am honored to know the women I've met through the Twilight world and will continue to fangirl squee with them and Shamwow hot pics of Rob...but in small doses.  I need more for ME.  One can only give so much before you realize that you've given it all and have nothing left from which to rebuild.

The basic message here is that I need to invest the time and energy into myself that I invest in all of these other things I'm involved in, Twilight specifically.  If I could put half of the passion into my own life that I've put into Twilight, I am sure I can greatly improve my overall happiness.

So, here I go. 

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My PMSy repsonse to Walmart's new commercials.

When you're a skinny kid of fourteen,
Wide with braces from ear to ear,
You doubt you’ll ever get your boobies.
Then Hallelujah! Training Bras appear
And the boys, they start to tease you
And your skin is red and splotchy
And you have that crampy, bitchy female feeling.

How shocking to be a woman,
With chocolate on your thighs;
How lovely to wear a girdle
And realize your slip’s too high.

How lovely to have a fat ass,
That's knocks things over in your wake;
Whenever you hear boys whistle,
They’re whistling at a skank.

It's horrible to itch
The way a woman itches;
It gives you such a scratch in your snatch
You've got yeasties in your britches!

How shocking to be a woman
And have one job to do;
To trap a man and change him
And then when you are through,
You've made him a man you can’t stand to see!
Life's frightful when you're a woman, like me!

How miserable to know
The things a woman knows;
How pitiful to wait for a date (…and wait for a date…and wait for a date…)
With tissues for a runny nose!

How shocking to be a woman
And change from men to women,
To go to a flashy nightclub
And bat for the other side, then.

How lovely to be so fucked-up and sad!
Fuck life, if you’re a woman, it’s bad!

Control yourself for a change

My mother has been mentally and emotionally abusive to me for a lot of years. Longer than I can even remember which shows you how long ago it started. She uses manipulation to control my thoughts and actions and my own view of myself and I am done allowing this to occur. I do not want to be the victim anymore, not that I ever actually wanted it. But when you are in an abusive relationship, you never see the forest for the trees.

I will give a few examples just to give you an idea of what I have seen from my mother in my lifetime.

One summer when I was eleven or so, she and I went to the local pool and after a while, she joined me in the water. She splashed me and laughed at me and when I tried to splash her back, she got out of the pool and got her stuff and went into the locker room. A half hour later, I wondered where she was. I went to the locker room to find her gone. She left me at the local pool. I had to borrow a quarter from someone at the pool and call a friend of my parents to come pick me up and drive me home.

When I was maybe twelve or thirteen, apparently (I don't remember this) my mother found out that I snuck a peek at a Christmas present before Christmas. Instead of picking me up from jr. high that day, she pulled up in the car, let me get in and the pushed me out in front of everyone outside. I walked the mile home and asked her what was going on and she pretended to be on the phone with the “catalog company” to return everything she had gotten for me. I woke up Christmas morning and she gave me the gifts she had bought and I was so fucking grateful and now that I look back at it, it pisses me off that I was so grateful. I was a little girl and she screamed at me and made me feel like I was dirt. I don't even remember it for godssake.

I think I was 14 or 15 and I was taking voice lessons because I love to sing but I'm extremely shy about it. My father was out of town and her friend came over to the house. It was evening and my mother told me to sing for “Aunt” Ange and I said I'd rather not. She threatened to ground me and take my car away from me and chased me upstairs and tried to lock me in my room (it had no lock so she just held the door shut from the outside as I tried to rip it open from the inside.)

Those are just three examples of what could be construed as juvenile angst and rebellion against my parents. But you have to know that I was never the rebellious type. I was a great kid. A good daughter and an excellent student. There was no reason for her to take things as far as she did, especially when I was so young.

I'm too tired to go into recent incidents because I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. Maybe tomorrow after I've had a break from thinking about it. They involve name-calling, manipulation, controlling, and outright lying. The sad part is that she must actually believe what she says and does because she would swear to the grave that whatever she does for anyone, she does it because it's “her job” as “your mother”, “your wife”, “your daughter”, “your aunt”, etc.

The worst part is that family members that I trust enough to confide in are annoyed with her as well but their reaction is that they can just ignore her. I'm her daughter and only child. I've tried to just ignore her and it doesn't work. The only thing I can do is to extract her from my life. Unfortunately that means not being able to see my father or grandmother as much as I'd like to.

That breaks my heart but it's worth the broken heart to heal my soul.

Rant over.

Subject: Programming

I received this from one of my readers:

Name: loreleikate
Profile: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/2080102/
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Normally I'm a total lurker, but I thought of your story this weekend and
thought I'd share.  I was at an arts festival on Saturday and met a really
great woman who does mixed media art.  As I was looking at her pieces, I saw
her "Femmes" series and immediately thought of your story - your Bella just
popped straight into my head and stayed there.  It's sort of an affirmation
piece "I am a full figured woman and I am fulfilled," but it reminded me so
much of the way you write...it was beautiful.

Anyway, if you'd like to take a look, the artist's name is Laura Wellem and
you can google her site.  The piece is under the "Femmes" series about a
quarter of the way down the page.  I bought the first one shown there.  :)  I
know a lot of people think fanfiction is silly or a waste of time, but just
like any type of writing, it affects people (and makes them buy cool pieces of
art, lol).  So thank you for the time and creativity you put into your story.
It is appreciated.

Kate

[Back to me] - This made me soooo happy.  I can't even begin to tell you.  I've had such a huge response for such a short story (it's only 6 chapters long!) but apparently just letting other people know that it's out there and it's ok to be who you are and be proud of that is enough.

Big thanks to Kate and all my readers/reviewers.  Hearing from you seriously makes my day.  <3

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You'll Say "WOW" Every Time!

 

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Robert Pantiesons Prototype

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For My Shamwow Bitches

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I would totes date Mike.

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Guess what I'm getting for Halloween

From the Twilight Examiner:

Apparently, the Twilight series' effect upon this year's upcoming Halloween festivities is not limited to costumes and contact lenses.

At least one company is making stencils for Twilight and Edward Cullen pumpkin cutouts as well.
While an Edward pumpkin face is probably not quite as odd as the shower curtain and wall stencil investigated previously, it is still quite enthusiastic.

The Edward stencil isn't the only one offered, either. Also included is a stencil of the Twilight film cover.
So, would you use any of these stencils on your Halloween pumpkin this year?  

Comment below and let us know!

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Rob writing music for Eclipse

Rob is writing for Eclipse!!!


New interview and picture!

Robert is the perfect example of what the media and fame are capable of doing. It’s a huge stroke of luck, brutal and well-aimed that all of a sudden launches you to the highest peak of worldwide attention, away from good and evil. Something very tempting and are.
“I wasn’t expecting having this much success. It’s something I still can’t understand. The truth is that in certain occasions I feel dizzy and I still don’t know how to handle so much attention” he expresses, in a very shy voice, almost like a whisper, as if he was telling us a secret. His eyes, so clear they’re almost transparent, stare attentively at us and distract us. It’s not easy resisting his charms! His honesty wins us over though, because far from finding a male diva, we discover, little by little a sensitive man. Warm and charming. We don’t hesitate in sharing with him what we really think: luck, yes, it’s fundamental, but if it doesn’t come hand in hand with talent and magic, everything remains just an anecdote. Robert smiles, he likes the idea. For now he knows that in talent he has exceeded expectations but he worries that he might not be up to the hype and the phenomenon that he’s become. It’s clear to us; charisma is authentic. And after this interview, there’s no doubts about it.



Last time we saw you, Twilight was about to be released and you said you didn’t know what to expect of the movie, and that everybody was looking forward to it. After all the success and box office numbers, how do you feel?

It’s very strange. I can say that everything has happened very fast. Like I’m fast-forwarding through life. Like everything around me is happening at 1000 m/p. The way you fast-forward a movie, just like that. I never thought the movie would cause such a stir. Seeing girls screaming around me is so bizarre. Sometimes I can’t believe is all about me. It’s like I’m living inside a movie, but I wake up and it’s all real. I see that it’s real and how much my life has changed. I still don’t know in which ways my life has changed, I’m still figuring that out. And I don’t know why but I think it’s going to take me a long time to figure it out. I guess it’s normal, don’t you think?



Of course! But we can’t deny that you’re already such a phenomenon by yourself. You have fans waiting for your next movie and wondering what you’re up to. Are you aware of that?

Yes, in fact, that’s the most strange part of it. For instance, I haven’t been able to see the final cut of New Moon, and I’ve read so many comments and opinions about it already. It’s something I can’t understand. It’s like everyone else can read into your future or, like they have more information of your life than you do.



Does that generate any pressure for you? Has it affected your work or changed you freedom in doing other things, or taking chances for fear of not acomplishing what others expect of you?

Honestly, no. In that sense I feel like I’m the same person i’ve always been and I feel I have all the freedom in the world. I’m still doing my job as best as I can, and most importantly, I still enjoy it. I admit that I do feel more safe in movie sets that on the streets. I never thought that one day that would happen, but I feel that in movie sets I can be myself, and be more relaxed and focused on what I have to do. When I go out for a walk, I have to be aware of everything that’s around me and that’s out of my control. On a familiar set at least you know what to expect most of the times (laughs).



Does it affect you what tabloids say about you and seeing yourself in the cover of these magazines?

Not at all. I don’t like to read them or be aware of what they say. At all. It’s something I avoid completely. I do my work, live my life and follow my intuitions. I make my decisions the best way that I can and that’s it. If you pay attention to any of that, you’ll lose. I’m aware of that and I try to be very careful about it. I try to live away from that, saving my self disgusts and headaches.



In Twilight we got to see some sexual tension between Bella and Edward. That’s something very enigmatic. Will that continue in the rest of the movies?

I don’t think there was sexual tension, nor do I think that that’s the focus of the movies. I don’t see it that way. I think it’s a stroy about what it means to commit to a feeling and to the person that you love. Above all, it’s about finding someone to love despite having to fight so many problems that might show up. What hooks you about the movie, I’m convinced about it, is that it talks about the fear of what can happen to you if you fall in love and give yourself away completely. Realising how far you can go for love, passion and being amazed by it. People identify with it more than you can imagine. To me it’s not even a story about vampires, but about feelings that we’ve all felt before. It talks about the fear of feeling those things. It’s a movie with so many meanings, that’s why I like it and I think that’s why people like it too.



Tell about how you can’t expect what’s going to happen when you go out.

Yes, it’s something I’m still taking in. I’m plain, I like normal things. But now there’s rumors about the places I like to visit, and I can’t go to those places anymore. One time I tried. I wanted to celebrate my birthday on the same place I always go to, and it was a total failure, There was so many people, I couldn’t have a good time. From that point on, I try to avoid places where I can be seen and become the object of paparazzi and curious people. I also avoid the hip, famous places where people think I might be at. I’ve changed them for darker places, those dodgy places where there’s good food and music. It’s sounds crazy, but I’ve had to develope strategies to go out with my friends and have a normal life. It’s the dark side of fame. But I don’t complain. I just asume that I have to deal with it now. Not everything can be perfect. I have so much already, having the oportunity of living from acting. It would be unfiar to say that I’m unlucky.



There are actors who would die to be in your shoes. Would you say that it’s a double life? The one that you live in front of the cameras, in red carpets and the one you live intimately?

Yes. In the end you have your real life and the one they make up in inteviews, not caring if what they’re saying is true or false. What’s true is that I’m too normal and I give them no material to write, so I’m an easy prey for make up stories. I should go wild and do crazy things so they have something to write about. My flaw for those tabloids is that I’m too calm and quiet (laughs).



And in those moments of intimacy and privacy, is it true hat you like to play the guitar? What do you do when you’re by yourself?

I do play the guitar. I have friends in Vancouver and I get together with them to play the guitar, listen to music. We spend the nights singing and swapping stories. I also do that when I’m at hotels. It’s relaxing. Music is my other passion. I hope I never leave it.



Speaking of passion and music, we know you write songs. What can you share about it?

I’m trying to write some songs for the next movie. I don’t know if it will be possible because of my schedule, but I want to do it. Music is the other side of me, it’s one of the things that complete me and I wouldn’t want to leave it aside for anything in the world. I have the intention of evolving in that aspect. It’s something I want to develope just as much as acting. I want to have a balance between those two things.



What other artistic endeavours are you interested in?

I always wanted to be a pianist and live in the south of France (laughs). But I’ve learned that it’s not important how you do things, but the final outcome. In life you always end up doing what you like. And nothing completes you more than that.



Do you have a spiritual side?

I believe in Karma. I believe it exists and whatever you do in your everyday life makes the eprson that you are. What you give in life comes back to you. I’m convinced of that, so I’m sure that everyday you have to be a good person and treat everyone with respect. We’re all connected.



We know you can’t say much about New Moon, but don’t leave before you tell us, did you have to go to some place dark to play this vampire again?

Yes, the truth is that the way I wanted to play Edward was less powerful. He’s a character that can’t change his condition, he didn’t choose his fate. He was unconcious when Carlisle turned him into a vampire. When he woke up, three days later, he realized that in oder to survive he would have to kill people. Imagine what would you feel like if you knew you would never grow old and that you would live forever. And what’s worse, you didn’t look for it. You become a sort of Superman without even wanting to be that, you were just a 17 year old kid. You must feel a huge impotence and frustration. Instead of believeing you’re hero, you’re a person who can’t find himself and doesn’t know who he is. Understanding that has been fundamental in understanding Edward. That very human side of him is what I love about him and I feel like I can relate to that. There’s something we all find hard to change and face about ourselves.

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As Uncle Jesse says, "Have Mercy!"

Thanks to AnOther Man Magazine for sending us the following info and larger image:

The issue goes on sale on Thursday in the UK and you can buy it at any WH Smiths , Borders etc.... You can also pop into any news agent and they will pre-order you a copy. This will be the cheapest way of getting your copy (and probably the fastest).

Lord Have Mercy!

DazedDigital previews issue 9 of AnOther Man out on October 1, which features Robert Pattinson on the cover, shot by Hedi Slimane and styled by Nicola Formichetti. Dave Calhoun speak to the 23-year-old Twilight star about the pressures of fame and the craft of acting: “It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life.”

Here is an excerpt from the Robert Pattinson feature written by Dave Calhoun.

Was Pattinson aware of the loyalty of fans of the Twilight books? It looks like the sort of obsessive fandom that can turn into anger and even hatred when an adaptation isn’t to their liking. Did he know what he was letting himself in for? “It’s strange because even though the figures show that the books were successful and sold millions of copies, you couldn’t even buy them in London. I tried a couple of bookshops and they weren’t available. Hardly anyone I knew had read them apart from one girl, a friend of my sister. I had no idea at all. I’d seen Kristen Stewart in Into the Wild and some of the director Catherine Hardwicke’s other films, and that’s all I thought it was, something really small.”

His manner is very laid back. He doesn’t sound thrusting or ambitious, more like he’s just going with the flow and enjoying things. Is he going to harness his newfound fame and box-office appeal to approach the kind of filmmakers he wants to work with in the future? He’s not so sure. “Annoyingly, there are so few parts I feel I can add anything to, or that I want to do.” But he knows what he doesn’t need. “I don’t want to be an actor for the sake of it. I don’t find any particular pleasure in being an attention-seeker.”

Issue 9 of AnOther Man will be on sale in the UK on October 1st

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On-set action.

Is that your arm I see behind your woman...lol

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A Century of Edward

I love how 90s Edward looks like Zack Morris (click for bigger)

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I rock.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Fan of the Week--Bri

Brianne is 27 years old and found the Twilight books in May of 2008. She and some other adult Twifans branched off from a more well-known Twifan site and is now a part of Twilight's Edge Adult Fan Site and also writes Twilight fanfiction on both Fanfiction.net and Twilighted.net under the moniker 1breezybri.

Aside from finding an awesome series and falling in love with the characters, both literary and cinematic, Bri has also formed friendships with other adult fans and she is so grateful to meet other women (and the occasional twiguy) that share her passion for life, love, and all things Twilight.

 

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One, ONE awesome vamp...HAH HAH HAAAAAAAH!

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Bwahahaha

 

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Didn't know this about Facebook

Hide Your Online Status From Certain People

 

Look, don’t feel bad about it. When I first joined Facebook I left my online status wide open. After a couple of weeks of getting inundated with nonstop chat requests, I simply turned off my online status completely. Problem solved. Except, there really were certain people I wouldn’t mind hearing from – is it really fair for a few chatterbox buddies to ruin your chances for communicating with everyone? Well, there is a way for you to selectively block your online status from certain people.

All you have to do is open up your chat icon in the lower right corner of your Facebook display, click on Friend Lists, and create a new list called “BlockList.” Make sure after you create it that it’s configured under “Display these lists in Chat.”

Now, all you have to do is either click “edit” and add the friends you want to block, or if they’re already online, just click their name and drag them under this new list. Once you’ve got everyone there who you want to block from see your online status, hover your mouse over the green dot to the right and click on “Go Offline.” Now, you appear offline to only those certain friends.

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I love making Lolz.

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Fanfic Fail.

If only...

Get back in your chair and stop touching me.

 

"I wish I knew how to quit you."

Twilightteez Liquidation Sale

http://www.twilightteez.com/

While supplies last.

NJ TwiTour 2009

My TwiTour Experience
by Bri (@1breezybri)

Checking in at the Parsippany, NJ Hilton was surreal. Every other person was wearing something Twilight related and I felt like I had found “my people.” My friend, K, and I brought our bags up to the room and quickly descended to register at the table since we were Gold Ticket Pass holders and were allowed to do everything first before the other attendees. 

Like molesting cardboard Edward.

There were banners and posters galore telling us that we had officially entered the Twifandom. I have to admit, K and I squee'd like junior high school girls. With our Gold Passes secured around our necks with lanyards, we entered the vendor room. It was the only room open that early in the morning so we began to look around at all the merchandise that was available.

That's when we noticed we had company. Directly behind us was The Hillywood Show. Since there were so few of us there that early, we immediately got in the short line to get their autographs and have our picture taken with the cute fake-sters. The Hillywood Show (link) is a small production company featuring Hannah and Hilly Hindi. Hannah (Alice) directs all of the Show's spoofs and they and their friends act out the appropriate parts. Hannah was extremely pleasant to talk to and was more than happy to tell us about the show and ask that we tell people about their website.

We wound up at a merch table for WeBook Apparel that is co-run by Fanfiction diva, Tex_belle. She was extremely friendly and just generally excited to be there. We talked fic for a while and I was very impressed by her drive, ambition, and intensity for all things Twilight. Her beta, Tigress5cubs, is a very intelligent woman and a successful lawyer and I am proud that people like her exist in the fandom.

Friday was day one and it included Q&A sessions and autographs with Catherine Hardwicke (Twilight's director) and Gil Birmingham (Billy Black). They both had incredible insight and knowledge about the world they helped to create. Catherine studied architecture in college and said that it helped her in her quest to be a director because it is all about problem solving. You must build something to legal specifications that is also beautiful and artistic and she said that describes directing to a tee.

She also delighted in telling us that at the beginning of the Twilight road, Rob told her that he was getting a lot of disparaging responses from people about his being cast as Edward. When Catherine told him to stop looking at blogs online, he said, "no, they're in emails from my mum!" Hilarious!

Catherine also divulged that a certain red-head that's been cast for Eclipse was originally offered the role for Twilight but she was uninterested in such a seemingly small project. Ha. I repeat, BRING BACK RACHELLE!!

If all that wasn't spicy enough, she also said that the reason a certain caramel colored vamp-mom wasn't included in the garage scene because she spends way too much time in the bathroom. I swear, the things you learn at conventions!

Gil was up next and was very articulate. He made it known that he was extremely proud to play the role of Billy Black for two reasons in particular: one, he was able to play a native american in a contemporary role that did not involve poverty or reservations so that we could see how modern american indians are “just like everyone else”, and two, he sat in Billy's wheelchair with honor, saying that you don't realize how lucky you are to be able to go where you want to go when you want to go there until you are at the mercy of a wheelchair.

One of his funny stories was when Billy Burke (Charlie Swan) was bringing Gil (as Billy Black) up the front steps of Charlie's house in the wheelchair and dropped him! Gil asked Billy if he was drinking, lol. He was also very confused as to how Billy Black could be driving a pick-up truck (the grrrr stare down with Eduardo) considering he was, ya know, in a fricking wheelchair and all. The producers literally said, "eh, it's ok, don't worry about it."

*blink, blink*

We noticed.

Day two involved Q&A and autograph sessions with Edi Gathegi (Laurent), and the wolfpack boys, Kiowa Gordon (Embry Call), Alex Meraz (Paul), and Chaske "Mufasa" Spencer (Sam Uley).

Chaske was James Earl Jones, no lie.

"SIMBA..."

The best part of seeing our boys up there on that stage was to truly realize that they are just human beings like the rest of us. They laughed together, joked together, and even razzed each other. The stars we know and love have become a family and it all started with a beautiful novel by Stephenie Meyer.

Alex told us that aside from hitting on Kiowa while he was in a wig, he also taught him how to throw a punch. Kiowa got a little overzealous and gave Alex a nice wallop. Alex also said that in the scene when Kristen (as Bella) walks up to the wolfpack and confronts Sam and the other boys about Jake's transformation, he went over the top one take and partially strangled Kristen. She was taken aback but went with it and the producers at Summit FREAKED THE FRICK OUT...saying "no one touches Kristen Stewart." LOL 'Cept Rob ;o) Yeah, I said it.

Alex said that he apologized like crazy and felt like one of the sour patch kids from the commercials..."I'm sowwy!"..."First they're sour, then they're sweet." Too cute.

Kiowa, or Ki as he signed my book, was ADORABLE!! He was playing video games with his friends when his mom called and he had to pause the game in the typical teenage-kid-in-an-80's-movie moment. Perfect! Then somehow, he got talked into singing, and the first lyrical words out of his mouth were, "My mama takes the morning train..." with Chaske and Alex acting as his back-up dancers. They had skillz, trust.

When we were in line to get the wolfpack's autograph, Kiowa Gordon (Embry Call) was sitting to my right with no one at his station, smiling up at me. I asked him, "so Ki, are you bored yet?" to which he responded, "no, but I've really gotta take a leak."

Then I said, "Wow, thank you for that," and he giggled and said, "hehe, welcome."

K and I eventually wound up at TGIFridays in the midst of all the commotion only to be greeted by our server, Jessica. Couldn't escape that bitch!

The Vampire Ball was the second night of the convention and all I will say is *swoon* for a hug from Gil Birmingham and a hug AND a kiss on the temple from Alex Meraz. All of my old and new Twifriends were dressed to the nines and we partied with the abandon of normal humans that would soon go back to the daily grind.

 TwilightMOMS gone Wild!!!!!

My new buuuuuudddddies. They were the shiznit. Ya know, if I were Snoop Dogg.

There were other nighttime shenanigans that included livin it up with "Edward" and "Jacob" and Heather, the photographer, of Fire and Ice Photos.

Somehow, Fakob (Mike Martinez) ended up becoming my buddy and there were drunken times to be had.

I still don't know how he ended up on my lap.

The ball ended with a beautiful performance by "Edward" (Daniel Jackson) on the piano. Throughout the convention, he played Carter Burwell's "Bella's Lullabye" and various other songs. My favorite, by far, was Yiruma's "River Flows in You" which never fails to take my breath away.

Of course, it could have been other reasons that I enjoyed his company. Just sayin.

All in all, it was a fantastic time and I highly recommend it to anyone who has the good fortune to find themselves in the general vicinity of a convention.


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And lastly, me being a dirty hOor.

The rest of the pics can be seen on my Photobucket or on Heather's Blogger,  Gabby's FB page, or Lisa's FB page!

That is all.

NJ TwiTour 2009 Pics

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Times Like These

This beautiful song was part of the latest chapter of Seventeen Cakes by vanessarae on fanfiction.net.  I can't help but relate to it for a number of reasons.  The most prominent being my relationship with my mother that has always been at the forefront of the things I do or do not do in my life.

I really wish I could forgive her for the things she's done.  I want to.  I want to be strong enough to let it all go and salvage a relationship with her.  I have been thinking about it more and more and I am in a constant state of anxiety of which I don't know how to get out. 

Is it time to let it all go for the sake of my sanity?

Is it time to let it all go so that I can have a piece of my mother, even though her good qualities are few and far between?

Is it time to let it all go so that she might see what a strong woman looks like?  Not the harsh, criticizing, demanding, controlling personality that she uses to keep the only people that love her at bay.

I want to believe I am capable of such love and understanding and forgiveness.  If I can do it, it will be the test of my life.  No dramatization here.  100% honesty.  I don't want to be a paralyzed victim anymore.  I want to be free of the pain and the guilt.

I don't believe in god but I would certainly pray to one if I thought it would help.

*sigh*





I am a one way motorway
I'm the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone

It's times like these you learn to live again
It's times like these you give and give again
It's times like these you learn to love again
It's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?

It's times like these you learn to live again
It's times like these you give and give again
It's times like these you learn to love again
It's times like these time and time again