Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Breaking up with Rob
*sigh*
I didn't want to have to do this, and I'm not sure how permanent it's going to be, but...
I'm breaking up with Rob.
Ok, ok, now don't freak out. I am the first one to say do what makes you happy and Twilight/Rob/bloggin/facebook buddy love makes me happy. But I can't support myself (at least not yet) with Twilight love.
My uncle came into town yesterday for the night and stayed at my house. He is a very successful VP at Cablevision and he did it by climbing the ladder and making a name for himself. At my age, he was making 100K and had major responsibilities. Granted, the money isn't what I'm after and I also don't live in NY (anymore) as he does.
I do, however, want to be successful at whatever it is that I do.
I have been floundering in work and in life for a few years now. Job interviews are like fairy tale endings. They are not truly the end, but just the beginning. Cinderella still has to put up with Charming's socks on the floor and skid marks in his underwear. Ariel has to come to grips with the fact that she'll never be able to truly go home again to see her family and you just KNOW she's going to blame Eric for that and come to resent him over time. I don't know what makes Bella think her situation is going to be any different. She's giving up her friends and family and her entire life. Edward is giving up nothing.
My point is - the interview and the offer are just the beginning. Once you are in the job, you have to continually prove that you are a professional that can be trusted to come through in situations that are crucial to the company. Unfortunately, in my current company, I have not been given a chance to shine due to a management that is happy to keep low-level employees in their place.
That is no excuse. I need to step up my game if I ever want to have a successful life. I am all about minimalism and zen habits but if I am not succeeding and being productive in some way, I feel stagnant. It's part of who I am. It's in my DNA. I love to make things happen, bring them to fruition and then unleash them on the world to see their reactions.
Now, back to the break-up.
Mr. Pattinson, you have been a source of comfort for me. I love looking at your beautiful face (and body) but there is so much more to you than that. And Kristen has to get in on this too. These two young actors have inspired me to live an honest life. To not live for others and what they want from you, but to think of things that make ME happy and go out and get mine. You are connected to life but in the most efficient ways possible. No twitter, no facebook, no google alerts on your actor obsession. *clears throat* I will be deleting my @1breezybri twitter account. I will still have a professional one for business contacts, but as a hobby for my personal life, it takes too much energy and is too addicting to be productive.
My personal notes to Rob and Twilight:
Rob, your songs are soulful and intense and every note out of your mouth is one to be cherished. I hope you put an album out because your voice has come to be a calm in the storm.
Twilight, you are a whirlwind in my life. I am still convinced that the publishers and Stephenie somehow got crack infused in the pages of the books and that's why I've become obsessed like I have.
Then, after reading the books 4 times each, I graduated to fanfiction and never looked back. Not only have I read my fair share, but I've also written a few and enjoy hearing feedback from my characters and plotlines. I intend to keep reading the updates that I receive but I am not going to start any new ones any time soon. Who knows what the future may bring, but the present belongs to me now.
Again, that provides me happiness and is a great hobby. For something that has been a hobby, however, I sure have spent an awful lot of time and energy on it.
I will never be one of those authors who removes my stories from the net, nor will I NOT finish Programming. I may sacrifice the second chapter of the two-shot and I may leave Touched as a one-shot, but Programming will be completed and will always be online (unless for some reason FFn or Twilighted decides they hate me). I will also still post the SSCSA whenever they are held and I will do so with gusto. You ladies make me laugh like nobody's business. I feel like I have truly found a family in all of your friendships.
So, Twilight. Rob. Kristen. Half-nakie pictures of Kellan. It's not you, it's me. There are things I want to accomplish in my life and you can be damn sure I won't get the opportunity if my ass is plastered to my couch while I watch yet another leaked video. I'm still convinced that the whole movie will be out in small increments before it's out in theaters. I am honored to know the women I've met through the Twilight world and will continue to fangirl squee with them and Shamwow hot pics of Rob...but in small doses. I need more for ME. One can only give so much before you realize that you've given it all and have nothing left from which to rebuild.
The basic message here is that I need to invest the time and energy into myself that I invest in all of these other things I'm involved in, Twilight specifically. If I could put half of the passion into my own life that I've put into Twilight, I am sure I can greatly improve my overall happiness.
So, here I go.
http://mytwilighttherapy.blogspot.com
I didn't want to have to do this, and I'm not sure how permanent it's going to be, but...
I'm breaking up with Rob.
Ok, ok, now don't freak out. I am the first one to say do what makes you happy and Twilight/Rob/bloggin/facebook buddy love makes me happy. But I can't support myself (at least not yet) with Twilight love.
My uncle came into town yesterday for the night and stayed at my house. He is a very successful VP at Cablevision and he did it by climbing the ladder and making a name for himself. At my age, he was making 100K and had major responsibilities. Granted, the money isn't what I'm after and I also don't live in NY (anymore) as he does.
I do, however, want to be successful at whatever it is that I do.
I have been floundering in work and in life for a few years now. Job interviews are like fairy tale endings. They are not truly the end, but just the beginning. Cinderella still has to put up with Charming's socks on the floor and skid marks in his underwear. Ariel has to come to grips with the fact that she'll never be able to truly go home again to see her family and you just KNOW she's going to blame Eric for that and come to resent him over time. I don't know what makes Bella think her situation is going to be any different. She's giving up her friends and family and her entire life. Edward is giving up nothing.
My point is - the interview and the offer are just the beginning. Once you are in the job, you have to continually prove that you are a professional that can be trusted to come through in situations that are crucial to the company. Unfortunately, in my current company, I have not been given a chance to shine due to a management that is happy to keep low-level employees in their place.
That is no excuse. I need to step up my game if I ever want to have a successful life. I am all about minimalism and zen habits but if I am not succeeding and being productive in some way, I feel stagnant. It's part of who I am. It's in my DNA. I love to make things happen, bring them to fruition and then unleash them on the world to see their reactions.
Now, back to the break-up.
Mr. Pattinson, you have been a source of comfort for me. I love looking at your beautiful face (and body) but there is so much more to you than that. And Kristen has to get in on this too. These two young actors have inspired me to live an honest life. To not live for others and what they want from you, but to think of things that make ME happy and go out and get mine. You are connected to life but in the most efficient ways possible. No twitter, no facebook, no google alerts on your actor obsession. *clears throat* I will be deleting my @1breezybri twitter account. I will still have a professional one for business contacts, but as a hobby for my personal life, it takes too much energy and is too addicting to be productive.
My personal notes to Rob and Twilight:
Rob, your songs are soulful and intense and every note out of your mouth is one to be cherished. I hope you put an album out because your voice has come to be a calm in the storm.
Twilight, you are a whirlwind in my life. I am still convinced that the publishers and Stephenie somehow got crack infused in the pages of the books and that's why I've become obsessed like I have.
Then, after reading the books 4 times each, I graduated to fanfiction and never looked back. Not only have I read my fair share, but I've also written a few and enjoy hearing feedback from my characters and plotlines. I intend to keep reading the updates that I receive but I am not going to start any new ones any time soon. Who knows what the future may bring, but the present belongs to me now.
Again, that provides me happiness and is a great hobby. For something that has been a hobby, however, I sure have spent an awful lot of time and energy on it.
I will never be one of those authors who removes my stories from the net, nor will I NOT finish Programming. I may sacrifice the second chapter of the two-shot and I may leave Touched as a one-shot, but Programming will be completed and will always be online (unless for some reason FFn or Twilighted decides they hate me). I will also still post the SSCSA whenever they are held and I will do so with gusto. You ladies make me laugh like nobody's business. I feel like I have truly found a family in all of your friendships.
So, Twilight. Rob. Kristen. Half-nakie pictures of Kellan. It's not you, it's me. There are things I want to accomplish in my life and you can be damn sure I won't get the opportunity if my ass is plastered to my couch while I watch yet another leaked video. I'm still convinced that the whole movie will be out in small increments before it's out in theaters. I am honored to know the women I've met through the Twilight world and will continue to fangirl squee with them and Shamwow hot pics of Rob...but in small doses. I need more for ME. One can only give so much before you realize that you've given it all and have nothing left from which to rebuild.
The basic message here is that I need to invest the time and energy into myself that I invest in all of these other things I'm involved in, Twilight specifically. If I could put half of the passion into my own life that I've put into Twilight, I am sure I can greatly improve my overall happiness.
So, here I go.
http://mytwilighttherapy.blogspot.com
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
My PMSy repsonse to Walmart's new commercials.
When you're a skinny kid of fourteen,
Wide with braces from ear to ear,
You doubt you’ll ever get your boobies.
Then Hallelujah! Training Bras appear
And the boys, they start to tease you
And your skin is red and splotchy
And you have that crampy, bitchy female feeling.
How shocking to be a woman,
With chocolate on your thighs;
How lovely to wear a girdle
And realize your slip’s too high.
How lovely to have a fat ass,
That's knocks things over in your wake;
Whenever you hear boys whistle,
They’re whistling at a skank.
It's horrible to itch
The way a woman itches;
It gives you such a scratch in your snatch
You've got yeasties in your britches!
How shocking to be a woman
And have one job to do;
To trap a man and change him
And then when you are through,
You've made him a man you can’t stand to see!
Life's frightful when you're a woman, like me!
How miserable to know
The things a woman knows;
How pitiful to wait for a date (…and wait for a date…and wait for a date…)
With tissues for a runny nose!
How shocking to be a woman
And change from men to women,
To go to a flashy nightclub
And bat for the other side, then.
How lovely to be so fucked-up and sad!
Fuck life, if you’re a woman, it’s bad!
Wide with braces from ear to ear,
You doubt you’ll ever get your boobies.
Then Hallelujah! Training Bras appear
And the boys, they start to tease you
And your skin is red and splotchy
And you have that crampy, bitchy female feeling.
How shocking to be a woman,
With chocolate on your thighs;
How lovely to wear a girdle
And realize your slip’s too high.
How lovely to have a fat ass,
That's knocks things over in your wake;
Whenever you hear boys whistle,
They’re whistling at a skank.
It's horrible to itch
The way a woman itches;
It gives you such a scratch in your snatch
You've got yeasties in your britches!
How shocking to be a woman
And have one job to do;
To trap a man and change him
And then when you are through,
You've made him a man you can’t stand to see!
Life's frightful when you're a woman, like me!
How miserable to know
The things a woman knows;
How pitiful to wait for a date (…and wait for a date…and wait for a date…)
With tissues for a runny nose!
How shocking to be a woman
And change from men to women,
To go to a flashy nightclub
And bat for the other side, then.
How lovely to be so fucked-up and sad!
Fuck life, if you’re a woman, it’s bad!
Control yourself for a change
My mother has been mentally and emotionally abusive to me for a lot of years. Longer than I can even remember which shows you how long ago it started. She uses manipulation to control my thoughts and actions and my own view of myself and I am done allowing this to occur. I do not want to be the victim anymore, not that I ever actually wanted it. But when you are in an abusive relationship, you never see the forest for the trees.
I will give a few examples just to give you an idea of what I have seen from my mother in my lifetime.
One summer when I was eleven or so, she and I went to the local pool and after a while, she joined me in the water. She splashed me and laughed at me and when I tried to splash her back, she got out of the pool and got her stuff and went into the locker room. A half hour later, I wondered where she was. I went to the locker room to find her gone. She left me at the local pool. I had to borrow a quarter from someone at the pool and call a friend of my parents to come pick me up and drive me home.
When I was maybe twelve or thirteen, apparently (I don't remember this) my mother found out that I snuck a peek at a Christmas present before Christmas. Instead of picking me up from jr. high that day, she pulled up in the car, let me get in and the pushed me out in front of everyone outside. I walked the mile home and asked her what was going on and she pretended to be on the phone with the “catalog company” to return everything she had gotten for me. I woke up Christmas morning and she gave me the gifts she had bought and I was so fucking grateful and now that I look back at it, it pisses me off that I was so grateful. I was a little girl and she screamed at me and made me feel like I was dirt. I don't even remember it for godssake.
I think I was 14 or 15 and I was taking voice lessons because I love to sing but I'm extremely shy about it. My father was out of town and her friend came over to the house. It was evening and my mother told me to sing for “Aunt” Ange and I said I'd rather not. She threatened to ground me and take my car away from me and chased me upstairs and tried to lock me in my room (it had no lock so she just held the door shut from the outside as I tried to rip it open from the inside.)
Those are just three examples of what could be construed as juvenile angst and rebellion against my parents. But you have to know that I was never the rebellious type. I was a great kid. A good daughter and an excellent student. There was no reason for her to take things as far as she did, especially when I was so young.
I'm too tired to go into recent incidents because I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. Maybe tomorrow after I've had a break from thinking about it. They involve name-calling, manipulation, controlling, and outright lying. The sad part is that she must actually believe what she says and does because she would swear to the grave that whatever she does for anyone, she does it because it's “her job” as “your mother”, “your wife”, “your daughter”, “your aunt”, etc.
The worst part is that family members that I trust enough to confide in are annoyed with her as well but their reaction is that they can just ignore her. I'm her daughter and only child. I've tried to just ignore her and it doesn't work. The only thing I can do is to extract her from my life. Unfortunately that means not being able to see my father or grandmother as much as I'd like to.
That breaks my heart but it's worth the broken heart to heal my soul.
Rant over.
I will give a few examples just to give you an idea of what I have seen from my mother in my lifetime.
One summer when I was eleven or so, she and I went to the local pool and after a while, she joined me in the water. She splashed me and laughed at me and when I tried to splash her back, she got out of the pool and got her stuff and went into the locker room. A half hour later, I wondered where she was. I went to the locker room to find her gone. She left me at the local pool. I had to borrow a quarter from someone at the pool and call a friend of my parents to come pick me up and drive me home.
When I was maybe twelve or thirteen, apparently (I don't remember this) my mother found out that I snuck a peek at a Christmas present before Christmas. Instead of picking me up from jr. high that day, she pulled up in the car, let me get in and the pushed me out in front of everyone outside. I walked the mile home and asked her what was going on and she pretended to be on the phone with the “catalog company” to return everything she had gotten for me. I woke up Christmas morning and she gave me the gifts she had bought and I was so fucking grateful and now that I look back at it, it pisses me off that I was so grateful. I was a little girl and she screamed at me and made me feel like I was dirt. I don't even remember it for godssake.
I think I was 14 or 15 and I was taking voice lessons because I love to sing but I'm extremely shy about it. My father was out of town and her friend came over to the house. It was evening and my mother told me to sing for “Aunt” Ange and I said I'd rather not. She threatened to ground me and take my car away from me and chased me upstairs and tried to lock me in my room (it had no lock so she just held the door shut from the outside as I tried to rip it open from the inside.)
Those are just three examples of what could be construed as juvenile angst and rebellion against my parents. But you have to know that I was never the rebellious type. I was a great kid. A good daughter and an excellent student. There was no reason for her to take things as far as she did, especially when I was so young.
I'm too tired to go into recent incidents because I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. Maybe tomorrow after I've had a break from thinking about it. They involve name-calling, manipulation, controlling, and outright lying. The sad part is that she must actually believe what she says and does because she would swear to the grave that whatever she does for anyone, she does it because it's “her job” as “your mother”, “your wife”, “your daughter”, “your aunt”, etc.
The worst part is that family members that I trust enough to confide in are annoyed with her as well but their reaction is that they can just ignore her. I'm her daughter and only child. I've tried to just ignore her and it doesn't work. The only thing I can do is to extract her from my life. Unfortunately that means not being able to see my father or grandmother as much as I'd like to.
That breaks my heart but it's worth the broken heart to heal my soul.
Rant over.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Subject: Programming
I received this from one of my readers:
Name: loreleikate
Profile: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/
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Normally I'm a total lurker, but I thought of your story this weekend and
thought I'd share. I was at an arts festival on Saturday and met a really
great woman who does mixed media art. As I was looking at her pieces, I saw
her "Femmes" series and immediately thought of your story - your Bella just
popped straight into my head and stayed there. It's sort of an affirmation
piece "I am a full figured woman and I am fulfilled," but it reminded me so
much of the way you write...it was beautiful.
Anyway, if you'd like to take a look, the artist's name is Laura Wellem and
you can google her site. The piece is under the "Femmes" series about a
quarter of the way down the page. I bought the first one shown there. :) I
know a lot of people think fanfiction is silly or a waste of time, but just
like any type of writing, it affects people (and makes them buy cool pieces of
art, lol). So thank you for the time and creativity you put into your story.
It is appreciated.
Kate
[Back to me] - This made me soooo happy. I can't even begin to tell you. I've had such a huge response for such a short story (it's only 6 chapters long!) but apparently just letting other people know that it's out there and it's ok to be who you are and be proud of that is enough.
Big thanks to Kate and all my readers/reviewers. Hearing from you seriously makes my day. <3
http://mytwilighttherapy.blogspot.com
Name: loreleikate
Profile: http://www.fanfiction.net/u/
--------------------
Normally I'm a total lurker, but I thought of your story this weekend and
thought I'd share. I was at an arts festival on Saturday and met a really
great woman who does mixed media art. As I was looking at her pieces, I saw
her "Femmes" series and immediately thought of your story - your Bella just
popped straight into my head and stayed there. It's sort of an affirmation
piece "I am a full figured woman and I am fulfilled," but it reminded me so
much of the way you write...it was beautiful.
Anyway, if you'd like to take a look, the artist's name is Laura Wellem and
you can google her site. The piece is under the "Femmes" series about a
quarter of the way down the page. I bought the first one shown there. :) I
know a lot of people think fanfiction is silly or a waste of time, but just
like any type of writing, it affects people (and makes them buy cool pieces of
art, lol). So thank you for the time and creativity you put into your story.
It is appreciated.
Kate
[Back to me] - This made me soooo happy. I can't even begin to tell you. I've had such a huge response for such a short story (it's only 6 chapters long!) but apparently just letting other people know that it's out there and it's ok to be who you are and be proud of that is enough.
Big thanks to Kate and all my readers/reviewers. Hearing from you seriously makes my day. <3
http://mytwilighttherapy.blogspot.com
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
Guess what I'm getting for Halloween
From the Twilight Examiner:
Apparently, the Twilight series' effect upon this year's upcoming Halloween festivities is not limited to costumes and contact lenses.
At least one company is making stencils for Twilight and Edward Cullen pumpkin cutouts as well.
While an Edward pumpkin face is probably not quite as odd as the shower curtain and wall stencil investigated previously, it is still quite enthusiastic.
Apparently, the Twilight series' effect upon this year's upcoming Halloween festivities is not limited to costumes and contact lenses.
At least one company is making stencils for Twilight and Edward Cullen pumpkin cutouts as well.
While an Edward pumpkin face is probably not quite as odd as the shower curtain and wall stencil investigated previously, it is still quite enthusiastic.
The Edward stencil isn't the only one offered, either. Also included is a stencil of the Twilight film cover.
So, would you use any of these stencils on your Halloween pumpkin this year?
Comment below and let us know!
So, would you use any of these stencils on your Halloween pumpkin this year?
Comment below and let us know!
Thanks Team-Twilight
Friday, October 2, 2009
Rob writing music for Eclipse
Rob is writing for Eclipse!!!
New interview and picture!
More scans: http://www.twilightpoison.com/gallery/th
Source: http://en.twilightpoison.com/general/rob-i
http://mytwilighttherapy.blogspot.com
New interview and picture!
Robert is the perfect example of what the media and fame are capable of doing. It’s a huge stroke of luck, brutal and well-aimed that all of a sudden launches you to the highest peak of worldwide attention, away from good and evil. Something very tempting and are.
“I wasn’t expecting having this much success. It’s something I still can’t understand. The truth is that in certain occasions I feel dizzy and I still don’t know how to handle so much attention” he expresses, in a very shy voice, almost like a whisper, as if he was telling us a secret. His eyes, so clear they’re almost transparent, stare attentively at us and distract us. It’s not easy resisting his charms! His honesty wins us over though, because far from finding a male diva, we discover, little by little a sensitive man. Warm and charming. We don’t hesitate in sharing with him what we really think: luck, yes, it’s fundamental, but if it doesn’t come hand in hand with talent and magic, everything remains just an anecdote. Robert smiles, he likes the idea. For now he knows that in talent he has exceeded expectations but he worries that he might not be up to the hype and the phenomenon that he’s become. It’s clear to us; charisma is authentic. And after this interview, there’s no doubts about it.
Last time we saw you, Twilight was about to be released and you said you didn’t know what to expect of the movie, and that everybody was looking forward to it. After all the success and box office numbers, how do you feel?
It’s very strange. I can say that everything has happened very fast. Like I’m fast-forwarding through life. Like everything around me is happening at 1000 m/p. The way you fast-forward a movie, just like that. I never thought the movie would cause such a stir. Seeing girls screaming around me is so bizarre. Sometimes I can’t believe is all about me. It’s like I’m living inside a movie, but I wake up and it’s all real. I see that it’s real and how much my life has changed. I still don’t know in which ways my life has changed, I’m still figuring that out. And I don’t know why but I think it’s going to take me a long time to figure it out. I guess it’s normal, don’t you think?
Of course! But we can’t deny that you’re already such a phenomenon by yourself. You have fans waiting for your next movie and wondering what you’re up to. Are you aware of that?
Yes, in fact, that’s the most strange part of it. For instance, I haven’t been able to see the final cut of New Moon, and I’ve read so many comments and opinions about it already. It’s something I can’t understand. It’s like everyone else can read into your future or, like they have more information of your life than you do.
Does that generate any pressure for you? Has it affected your work or changed you freedom in doing other things, or taking chances for fear of not acomplishing what others expect of you?
Honestly, no. In that sense I feel like I’m the same person i’ve always been and I feel I have all the freedom in the world. I’m still doing my job as best as I can, and most importantly, I still enjoy it. I admit that I do feel more safe in movie sets that on the streets. I never thought that one day that would happen, but I feel that in movie sets I can be myself, and be more relaxed and focused on what I have to do. When I go out for a walk, I have to be aware of everything that’s around me and that’s out of my control. On a familiar set at least you know what to expect most of the times (laughs).
Does it affect you what tabloids say about you and seeing yourself in the cover of these magazines?
Not at all. I don’t like to read them or be aware of what they say. At all. It’s something I avoid completely. I do my work, live my life and follow my intuitions. I make my decisions the best way that I can and that’s it. If you pay attention to any of that, you’ll lose. I’m aware of that and I try to be very careful about it. I try to live away from that, saving my self disgusts and headaches.
In Twilight we got to see some sexual tension between Bella and Edward. That’s something very enigmatic. Will that continue in the rest of the movies?
I don’t think there was sexual tension, nor do I think that that’s the focus of the movies. I don’t see it that way. I think it’s a stroy about what it means to commit to a feeling and to the person that you love. Above all, it’s about finding someone to love despite having to fight so many problems that might show up. What hooks you about the movie, I’m convinced about it, is that it talks about the fear of what can happen to you if you fall in love and give yourself away completely. Realising how far you can go for love, passion and being amazed by it. People identify with it more than you can imagine. To me it’s not even a story about vampires, but about feelings that we’ve all felt before. It talks about the fear of feeling those things. It’s a movie with so many meanings, that’s why I like it and I think that’s why people like it too.
Tell about how you can’t expect what’s going to happen when you go out.
Yes, it’s something I’m still taking in. I’m plain, I like normal things. But now there’s rumors about the places I like to visit, and I can’t go to those places anymore. One time I tried. I wanted to celebrate my birthday on the same place I always go to, and it was a total failure, There was so many people, I couldn’t have a good time. From that point on, I try to avoid places where I can be seen and become the object of paparazzi and curious people. I also avoid the hip, famous places where people think I might be at. I’ve changed them for darker places, those dodgy places where there’s good food and music. It’s sounds crazy, but I’ve had to develope strategies to go out with my friends and have a normal life. It’s the dark side of fame. But I don’t complain. I just asume that I have to deal with it now. Not everything can be perfect. I have so much already, having the oportunity of living from acting. It would be unfiar to say that I’m unlucky.
There are actors who would die to be in your shoes. Would you say that it’s a double life? The one that you live in front of the cameras, in red carpets and the one you live intimately?
Yes. In the end you have your real life and the one they make up in inteviews, not caring if what they’re saying is true or false. What’s true is that I’m too normal and I give them no material to write, so I’m an easy prey for make up stories. I should go wild and do crazy things so they have something to write about. My flaw for those tabloids is that I’m too calm and quiet (laughs).
And in those moments of intimacy and privacy, is it true hat you like to play the guitar? What do you do when you’re by yourself?
I do play the guitar. I have friends in Vancouver and I get together with them to play the guitar, listen to music. We spend the nights singing and swapping stories. I also do that when I’m at hotels. It’s relaxing. Music is my other passion. I hope I never leave it.
Speaking of passion and music, we know you write songs. What can you share about it?
I’m trying to write some songs for the next movie. I don’t know if it will be possible because of my schedule, but I want to do it. Music is the other side of me, it’s one of the things that complete me and I wouldn’t want to leave it aside for anything in the world. I have the intention of evolving in that aspect. It’s something I want to develope just as much as acting. I want to have a balance between those two things.
What other artistic endeavours are you interested in?
I always wanted to be a pianist and live in the south of France (laughs). But I’ve learned that it’s not important how you do things, but the final outcome. In life you always end up doing what you like. And nothing completes you more than that.
Do you have a spiritual side?
I believe in Karma. I believe it exists and whatever you do in your everyday life makes the eprson that you are. What you give in life comes back to you. I’m convinced of that, so I’m sure that everyday you have to be a good person and treat everyone with respect. We’re all connected.
We know you can’t say much about New Moon, but don’t leave before you tell us, did you have to go to some place dark to play this vampire again?
Yes, the truth is that the way I wanted to play Edward was less powerful. He’s a character that can’t change his condition, he didn’t choose his fate. He was unconcious when Carlisle turned him into a vampire. When he woke up, three days later, he realized that in oder to survive he would have to kill people. Imagine what would you feel like if you knew you would never grow old and that you would live forever. And what’s worse, you didn’t look for it. You become a sort of Superman without even wanting to be that, you were just a 17 year old kid. You must feel a huge impotence and frustration. Instead of believeing you’re hero, you’re a person who can’t find himself and doesn’t know who he is. Understanding that has been fundamental in understanding Edward. That very human side of him is what I love about him and I feel like I can relate to that. There’s something we all find hard to change and face about ourselves.
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